What I've Learnt in 2011

Bagaikan sekeping uang logam,
antara benar dan salah tipis sekali
mudah sekali membalikkan sesuatu yang benar menjadi salah
dan (mungkin) terkadang kita bisa membalikkan kesalahan menjadi sesuatu yang bernilai "benar", apapun caranya.

Seperti subuah questionaire,
Hidup ini penuh pilihan
Kita bebas memilih,
Akankah kita menjadi seseorang yang baik hati..
Ataupun kejam
Akankah kita menjadi rendah hati..
Ataupun rendah diri
Akankah kita menjadi seseorang yang jujur..
Ataupun sebaliknya
Dan ketika kita dihadapkan oleh suatu masalah,
Kita bisa memilih,
Menghadapinya dengan tenang,
Penuh emosi,
Ataupun bersikap seakan tidak terjadi apapun dan lari dari masalah

Namun memang ada saatnya
Ketika kita tidak bisa memilih lagi
Dan kita harus bersiap menghadapi sesuatu yang tidak kita harapkan

Sadarkah kita?
Bahwa disaat seperti itupun, kita masih mempunyai pilihan
Untuk bersikap sabar, ataupun tidak
Untuk tetap terdiam, ataupun berusaha mengubahnya

Semua pilihan ada pada kita

Banyak orang berkata (dan mungkin memang benar)
Tuhan menciptakan sesuatu berpasangan
Kita mempunyai 2 mata, 2 telinga
Ada siang dan malam
Dan tentu saja, ada hitam dan putih
Disaat kita melihat sesuatu dan mengatakannya sebagai "putih"
Ada orang lain di ujung lain melihat dan mengatakannya sebagai "hitam"
Begitu sebaliknya

Disaat kita berpikir bahwa sesuatu itu "benar"
Ada orang lain di depan kita yang mengatakan bahwa itu "salah"

Putih, hitam
Benar, salah

Kadang menyenangkan berada dalam situasi itu
Kita bisa belajar, menjadi sesuatu yang bisa "menerima"
Tetapi disaat kita tidak bisa menempatkan diri,
Kita akan terjerumus, masuk..
Terjebak dalam..
Dalam satu hal yang disebut "kedengkian"

Semua orang di bumi ini dikaruniai otak yang berbeda
Yang memiliki cara pandang yang berbeda

Satu hal yang harus kita ingat dan lakukan
Adalah menghormati perbedaan itu
Dan menyadari, sesala sesuatu mempunyai dua sisi yang berbeda
Hitam.. atau putih.

That's life
Kita tidak bisa memaksa yang "hitam" menjadi "putih" atau sebaliknya
Kita tidak bisa memaksa yang "salah" menjadi "benar"
Kita bahkan tidak bisa memaksa seseorang menyukai kita

Yang bisa kita lakukan adalah memilih..
Dan menghadapi segala resikonya dengan berani

Another Little Note about This "Life"

Life is a phase
We do need to change
Sometimes, it happens automatically and uncontrollably
We just need to open our eyes widely

When the situation is getting worse
When it feels like burying ourselves in the center of the earth
We just need to say : oh well, what a life

When we feel so empty
When we feel so frustrated
We just need to say : let's have a bar of chocolate, a bucket of spicy wings, ice cream - together in one time!

When we become a looser
When we failed
When we can't get what we want
We just need to say : well, next time I will be the winner

When we are lonely
When we have no one stays beside us
When we have no one we can lay our head on his/her shoulder
We just need to say : let's have a Brazilian turtle. We can talk with him.

When our heart breaks
We just need to repair it

When we don't know what to do
When we don't know where to go
We can easily go to our bed, turn our i Pod out, and enjoy our dreams

It's all so easy
Easy to say -maybe- but it's not easy to do

We just need to let all flow
Enjoy every seconds of our life
No matter how awful it is

It will soon change
Even if we don't do anything to change
Sometimes miracles happen and it's change automatically

So when we have a big d**n problem we can't solve
When we have do everything but it remains nothing
We just simply need to be patient

Because time will talk

Sometimes we have to let ourselves go down
Because we will learn how to go up
To stand
To survive
To live

It's just a life
When we can't do anything
Think that at least, we can breathe..
-Thank God for it-
and that's the only way to make all things work.

A Little Note about This "Life"

 life. to live. stay alive.

Roda itu selalu berputar
Seperti halnya hidup ini,
Berputar
Berubah

Kadang kita di atas
Di puncak segalanya
Harta berlimpah
Sehat dan sejahtera
Bahagia?

Ada kalanya pula kita di bawah
Terbuang
Terlupakan
Miskin
Putus asa
Bahagia?

Setidaknya begitu kata kebanyakan orang

Selama belasan tahun sejak pertama kali menghembuskan nafas di dunia ini
Ada beberapa hal yang membuktikan eksistensi roda kehidupan itu

Sebut saja saudara jauh
Bergelimang harta, rumah mewah, mobil mentereng
Sekarang untuk makan esok hari pun masih bingung

Dan berita2 di televisi itu
Seorang yang pas2an
Mendapat undian
Langsung kaya raya

Atau cerita hidup beberapa orang sukses
Yang dulunya loper koran
Sekarang memiliki perusahaan dimana-mana

Indah sekali drama kehidupan ini

Di atas, di bawah, di atas lagi
Jatuh lagi

Roda

Ada suatu fakta, bukan 'beberapa'
yang bahkan dari bayi sampai tua renta
roda kehidupan tidak mau bergerak untuknya
tetap di bawah
selalu di bawah

Untuk menggerakkan roda, perlu usaha yang begitu besar
Itu benar

Tapi
Lihat saja
Mereka sudah membanting tulang
Bekerja setiap hari
Berusaha
Tetap saja roda tak kunjung mau bergerak

Apa sebenarnya yang harus mereka lakukan?
Apa sebenarnya yang mereka butuhkan?

Keajaiban?
Mukjizat?

Sampai kapan mereka harus menunggu?

Tapi
Benarkah?
Benarkah roda kehidupan tidak mau bergerak untuk mereka?
Benarkah mereka miskin selamanya?
Menderita, hina, terlupakan?
Bahagia kah?

Kalau begitu pikirkan.
Definisi "di atas"
Definisi "di bawah"
Definisi "kaya"
Definisi "miskin"
Definisi "bahagia"

Yakinlah, rencana Tuhan pasti lebih indah.
Dan kalau kita mau bersyukur, kita akan mendapatkan
Apa yang disebut
"blessing in disguise"
=)

When Everything've Changed - The last part

So. after a month living under all this stupid "pressure".
I've made a choice.
I've concluded.

That whatever things happen, no matter how bad it is, it's not the end of my life.
It is the beginning of my own new life.

I've made my choice to stop hoping about "it" and all things that related with "it".
I've made a choice and now it's time for me to look ahead, never look back
I don't know and I'm not sure whether or not this decision is wise enough, but I do believe and I've promised that I WILL NEVER EVER BE SORRY FOR IT.
I know that I need to step up and be strong.

this is the time.
time has answered all thing that i want to know.
time has told me all truths and facts about that d**n thing.

And it's now my turn to wake up from this nightmare.
It's now my turn to walk on my own way.
It's now my turn to have another hope.. another dream.
It's now my turn to change.

I don't know what will happen next.
I don't even want to guess it.
I just want to let all flow, let the future comes and meets me.
I'm going to enjoy this mysterious life with my own way.
And there's no turning back.
I need to move on.
I need to change.

This is how the story ends.

When Everything've Changed - Part 2

It was a tiring day after having such long trip. I feel happy. Yes, indeed. But well..
I start to think (again) about this kinda thing. Moreover, I've known another (d**n) facts about it.
I feel like burying myself into the center of the world.(deep breath)

well. everything have totally changed now.
I've taken my own brand-new-steps as my friend did.

But still... I am hoping for such miracles.
I am waiting.

I don't know what could happen.
And I'm not on my way to be over-confidence that everything will be alright soon.
One thing that I know that everything are being worse and worse every single day.

But still... I am hoping for such miracles.
I am waiting.

I do believe time will answer everything.

now.. I'm just hoping. waiting. DYING. SUFFERING.
what kinda girl I am now??

well, again and again..
I don't know whether this will be the end of everything
or maybe it will be the beginning of my new life

because sometime,,
when everything around you have changed,,
you have to let all flow. even if it means that you have to change too.

this is life.
we make choices.
sometimes we make a right decision. sometimes we make the wrong one.

when we make the wrong one..
or (in another word) we don't even realize or want it to be happen..
we will remember our faults until the very end of our life, so we will not do the same stupid thing anymore.

HOPING. only hope.
You used to be my only hope.
But now you're gone.
and my life become a hell.
thank you, that's very kind of you.
AAAAAA.
WTH I'm talking about?

Whoa.
this is life.
sometimes we feel blue
sometimes we feel unwell
but somehow, that kind of things prove that you are alive.

I DO KNOW AND I DO BELIEVE THAT HIS PLANS ARE WONDERFUL AND THE BEST FOR ME.

*i close my case without any clear or deep elaboration, I don't even know what I'm talking about, so I deserve to be the losing team*

When Everything've Changed - Part 2

It was a tiring day after having such long trip. I feel happy. Yes, indeed. But well..
I start to think (again) about this kinda thing. Moreover, I've known another (d**n) facts about it.
I feel like burying myself into the center of the world.(deep breath)

well. everything have totally changed now.
I've taken my own brand-new-steps as my friend did.

But still... I am hoping for such miracles.
I am waiting.

I don't know what could happen.
And I'm not on my way to be over-confidence that everything will be alright soon.
One thing that I know that everything are being worse and worse every single day.

But still... I am hoping for such miracles.
I am waiting.

I do believe time will answer everything.

now.. I'm just hoping. waiting. DYING. SUFFERING.
what kinda girl I am now??

well, again and again..
I don't know whether this will be the end of everything
or maybe it will be the beginning of my new life

because sometime,,
when everything around you have changed,,
you have to let all flow. even if it means that you have to change too.

this is life.
we make choices.
sometimes we make a right decision. sometimes we make the wrong one.

when we make the wrong one..
or (in another word) we don't even realize or want it to be happen..
we will remember our faults until the very end of our life, so we will not do the same stupid thing anymore.

HOPING. only hope.
You used to be my only hope.
But now you're gone.
and my life become a hell.
thank you, that's very kind of you.
AAAAAA.
WTH I'm talking about?

Whoa.
this is life.
sometimes we feel blue
sometimes we feel unwell
but somehow, that kind of things prove that you are alive.

I DO KNOW AND I DO BELIEVE THAT HIS PLANS ARE WONDERFUL AND THE BEST FOR ME.

*i close my case without any clear or deep elaboration, I don't even know what I'm talking about, so I deserve to be the losing team*

When Everything've Changed

-When everything've changed-

Detik bergerak..
Bumi bergerak..
Matahari bergerak..
Manusia bergerak.. dan mungkin berubah..

Perubahan.
Ketika seseorang berubah
Orang itu akan menjadi berbeda

Perbedaan.

Selama ini banyak sekali tulisan, nasihat, -ato apapun itu- mengenai perbubahan
Proses pencarian jati diri dan segala tetek bengeknya

Berubah - bisa berarti banyak hal
Ketika kita menganggap perubahan ini ke arah yang lebih baik
Orang lain diluar sana menganggapnya tidak

Berubah, menjadi berbeda adalah hal yang mudah dilakukan
Bahkan kadang kita berubah tanpa kita sadari

Pernahkah kita sadar - saat kita berubah
Orang yang ada di dekat kita merasa -well- tidak senang
Karena orang yang biasa mereka kenal
Menjelma jadi seseorang yang benar2 berbeda
Tersisa raga, nyaris tak dikenali?

Teman yang baik mau menerima temannya apa adanya
Ketika mendadak teman itu berubah..
? ? ?

Kadang -bagi orang tertentu- susah sekali menghadapi perbedaan itu


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